i'm 20 years old, and have been suffering from severe depression and anxiety since about
age 16. I'm overcoming a serious opiate addiction, due to severe social anxiety that has led me to literally live my life alone in my house. i'm beyond depressed, have seen dozens of psychiatrists and psychologists, tried numerous ssri's, welbutrin, benzos, etc. nothing seems to motivate me; nothing pushes me in the right direction.
i was always a popular kid in high school; played varsity basketball, excelled in computers, aced all my classes, constantly had girlfriends. then i started experimenting with drugs, pot, alcohol, you name it. i tried committing suicide the beginning of my senior year, and i just feel as though i've made absolutely no progress in years. i've held jobs here and there. even got on an exercise regimine for a few months that was making me feel better.
but i always end up back at square one: my parents basement where i spend days just sitting in front of the tv, watching my dvr, and burnt dvds. i own my own computer repair business that i do on the side once in a while but nothing seems to push me in the right direction. i've lost everyone, even though i have a girlfriend that loves me very much and would do anything for me.
i don't even know why i'm bothering posting on this forum; i figured i'd give it a shot. well, thanks for reading.