My ex has once again lied to my son. He was supposed to visit my son today......told my son yesterday morning that he was driving up early this morning. He has not seen my son for 6 months.......My fault because I moved away from him to avoid the constant conflict and abuse.
He called last night and said he would rather vist my son on New Years. (I told him a month ago that we would be going to Georgia to visit my family during this time.) He proceeds to tell me "for once put your son first"........ and begins an abusive tirade. I hung up. I am afraid the crux of the matter was that I would not let him stay in my house....he told me to go buy a mattress for him.....he was telling me the what he was going to do to me (sexual).
I am doubting myself again. ( I divorced him because of abuse..mental/verbal, sexual and physical).
My family members live very far apart (my brother in Thailand, for example). Christmas is the only time that everyone is able to get together. My little one is extremely excited about seeing them.
My son is the most important thing in the world to me. Am I being selfish? Am I putting myself first for not changing our plans?
Please tell me what you think.........this is a major set back for me....I am in major self doubt mode....I feel like I am slipping......are my thoughts rational?
Major Depression, Anxiety/Panic Disorder, ADHD, Binge Eating Disorder, PTSD, Degenerative Disc Disease (post 3 Surgeries including Fusion), Advanced Osteoarthritis, Fibromyalgia, Interstitial Cystitis, IBS, GERD, Larngopharyngeal Reflux
God, Please Grant Me,
The Serenity to accept the things I cannot change, The Courage to change the things that I can,
and The Wisdom to know the difference……….Just for Today