I need to vent before I snap. I apologize ahead of time for the long rant.
I have always been pretty mentally strong and high spirited. Great sense of humor. Finding good in everything and making the best of a bad situation. Lately, I just can't deal with even the slightest aggravation. And nothing seems funny.
2006 was one of the worst years of my life. My youngest son, 16, was sent to prison for 4 years (in June.) My 19 yr.old son was sent to jail for 3 months in November. 1 week later my 15 year old daughter was put into a facility for truancy and behavioral problems and I just learned that she diagnosed with Bipolar, ODD, ADHD and manic depressive. I spend most of my time visiting my children at different locations. I sat home alone for Christmas with an unlit tree.
My husband and I are going through a divorce.(split up almost 2 years ago.) A man I had been dating, became so abusive that I am sitting here at this very moment with a broken wrist, 3 lumps on my head from 3 different occassions and a split lip that required 4 stitches. All of these injuries have occurred over the last 2 weeks and all at different times. I have left him and had him arrested. I don't know why it took me several beatings to wake up. But I did.
I am disabled. I have had spinal surgery. A metal plate in my neck. Rheumatoid arthritis, degenerative disc disease, blah..blah.. I really didn't want to sit in the wheelchair before my time and that is exactly where he was sending me.
So, here I sit... 3 children locked up, I am beaten and battered and the saying that I have always lived by, just doesn't make sense anymore..."Everything happens for a reason." ???
Am I feeling sorry for myself? Probably...but it feels good to just get it out. I refuse to let this year be a repeat of last.
Thank you for letting me take up space on your board. :-/