thank you! I love the name!
unfortunatly no there isn't any family around even thought I have 2 sisters and a brother it is more like being an only child who's parents have both passed away. (and there all alive). I do have a beau but it is hard to talk to him, more often than not he doesnt understand. Not that he doesnt try. I appreciate him very much but he seems to have his own issues that he never wants to talk to me about either and more often than not i feel left out. As far as 'friends' are concerned, i seem to have lost them all just as soon i was the one who needed the help and not the one giving the help or advice anymore. Right now I feel like i am looking for sympathy. Believe me I am not but it just gets so dam* hard sometimes.
I have spoken to my Pr about the mood swings and cry spells, and he is trying to help me to get on ssi, but that takes time. and I know that i just have to be patient. But it doesn't always help. I am on antidepresants Cymbalta and trazadone, but there just the newest of the meds only about 3-4 days now. I had been taking Effexor XR and Remeron which didnt do much for me even after increasing dosages and mixing and matching for 2 years. I have been on lamictal and wellbutrin And B 4 that was on lexapro.
that doesn't incl. what my DR. has me on either. pain relievers muscle relaxers and anti inflamitorys. It just feels like it is all so "trial and error". I try each day to find something that isn't so bad or something good to keep me going.I am just loosing faith in the medical field.
I truely appreciate your taking the time to listen to me vent........... It does help just to get it out and @ least 'feel' like someone is listening. It makes me feel @ lil more like I'm not alone in this fight.