Hi famous. I agree with most everyone else. I think it is your health and you have the right to take medications, but if you do want to keep the peace, then have someone like a pharmacist or doctor educate your parents on meds. They do not change your feelings at all. They merely regulate the chemicals in your brain that are out of whack and partly responsible for why you feel so low and why you struggle with ocd. Once those chemicals are regulated, you are in better stead to work through your feelings of depression and anxiety. A therapist can be of great help in this area but often meds are needed to regulate the chemical balance in our brains before we can undertake helpful counselling. I think your parents just lack the education about
depression and meds and may see the light once they learn some things.
When I was your age, the world looked as bleak. I had ocd and depression something awful.
I took a year to recover because I was so underweight at the time too.
This is what I learned from that. Suicide is a permanent answer to a temporary situation. That was 15 years ago for me, and when I think of all that has come into my life since then, I can't imagine having died and missed out on that. I'm not saying there were no more hard times, but I'm saying there were plenty of good things I'd have missed out on and that I got help for the depression and ocd so they became managable. Death is permanent but depression and ocd are not. It is natural I think to feel as if you want to die when you are that depressed. Some days I am in so much pain from my surgery I want to die but not actively harm myself. It's more like a passive wish. Anyway, what you feel now sucks and it hurts bad. Try to keep in mind, not to minimize it, that it is not forever and death is. The fact that it is not forever may not make you feel better right now but it may help you hang on and choose life over suicide. I promise you you'll be glad you did.
Do keep us posted on your parents' response to meds and how you are feeling. And good luck to you as you face your challenges. It sounds like you're on a good road. We hope you will let us travel some of it with you.
Frassy, I am sorry but I have had to edit your post due to forum rule and regulations # 1. No discussions of suicide or self harm. I realize that your post was to set an example but these types of discussions are could become injurious to others and we do have younger kids that post on this site and I would hate for them to get any ideas from something that we post. I hope you do understand. Thank you ~ Elisha
Post Edited By Moderator (els) : 1/10/2007 6:32:25 AM (GMT-7)