reading your post was like looking at something i would write much of what you said i have gone through. i was denied my first university choice and had to change my course to get into another uni. I have been seriously hurt by all the guys i have loved or cared for so am now commitment phobic.
i feel asthough i have no talents, i am not sporty, musical, artistic or anything, and got hooked on pain meds after being in hospital as they made me feel giddy and happy, but i too havent had any since the summer.
i tried St Johns Wort it worked a little bit but since i sought help ive been much better on the fluoxetine.
it all turned out better tho, ive met some great friends at my uni that i wouldnt have met if id got into my first choice plus i love this city.
without a boyfriend i am a ble to conccentrate on getting better and focusing on my friends. sometimes things happen for a reason (i do believe this) and although failing to get into the course or uni that i wanted seemed like the end of the world, it turned out to e the best thing ever!
i really feel like i understand you, please keep us up to date on whats going on with you. xx
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