Hi scholiosiskid, I've been in the same situation as you. wanting to end it all and feeling like my family hates me. I called a crisis line and they helped me to get help without my family ever knowing. Please call someone...it saved my life and I would hate to think of all the wonderful things I would have missed out on in life If I hadn't made that call. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Please let us know how you are going. We are here to listen.
Dance like no-one's watching,
Love Thy Neighbour, just don't get caught!