I am not good at suggesting meds as I was on so many,and like yourself just wanted to be off all of them because of the side effects. I have been med free for 3 years now. And I feel alot better,most of the time. I still have my crying moments,I still have times to where I think everyone around me sucks and I begin to push people away.
It is so hard not to go back to the doctor and tell him I give up. I feel myself slipping all of the time,and that is one of my main worries.
I have major panic and anxiety attacks and after reading about benadryl I started taking that. I know it is not great for me,but it helps. I take probably 4 a day.... not what I should be doing but going cold turkey on anything is to hard for me.
One thing you need is a great support system.
I am sure your hubby is aware that you are not taking meds..so,talk to him and tell him what you are feeling and ask him if he could just step in when he sees you sliding and give you a hug and lots of words of encouragement.
My b/f tells me how much better I look,how much better I act. That I don't look and act like a zombie anymore. He tells me he is worries about me going back on meds because it is not good for my body ect ect.
That keeps me going.
Doing things for yourself that makes you feel good. Buying a new outfit,or going out to dinner anything that you enjoy.
Another thing is writing things down (like you are doing here)...and reading inspirational books.
Try to stay away from people and places that make you feel bad.
I know that it hard but it is a must.
3 years ago I chose to move to another town to get away from my ex-husband. Then I just refused to take his calls,and used my b/f to vent about it all.
I know that my therapy of getting off of meds is basically him,and I worry about what would happen to me if anything happened to us,but it is something I have to prepare myself for.
Being off of meds is just a great feeling.It is not for everyone. But,if it is for you then it is something you have to work at. Simple as that.
The pros out weigh the cons,and it is something you just have to keep telling yourself.
Chronic Depression, Panic Attacks,Anxiety Attacks,Anorexia