You are not alone. YOu have described me to a tee. At this moment, I'm suffering with tonsillitis x 2 weeks, had been awaiting gallbladder surgery which was cancelled due to the tonsillitis. Since I had my daughter, 17 years ago, I'm be beseiged with frequent viruses, iinfections, ects. fatigue, episodic dpression. I've seen many doctors over the years. My test results are all normal. I always say I look awfully good on paper. As soon as I get past the tonsillitis and gallbladder surgery, godwilling, I'm planniing to see a rheumatologist to explore autoimmune diseases/ fibromyalgia/chronic fatigue. I'm not sure what they can do for any of these anyway, but I'd like to begin the exploration and hopefully a path to wellness.
I truly understand how you're feeling. I cry a lot at this point. I've had to adjust my work schedule, and now I'm going to be taking my 3rd week off due to illness. It's hard to explain to people. I often hear, "You're sick again?" I hate it and find it so embarrassing. Yet, I know it's not my fault. I'd like nothing more than to feel normal and live a productive, happy life. I'm so very sad and scared much of the time these days. Without these health issues, my life would be good - a wonderful husband, 2 great teenaged kids, a rewarding job, friends. And yet, I'm so miserable because I feel so terrible all the time. Good luck to you, Kerry. Please write back. It would help me to be in touch with someone who shares my struggle.