I usually post on the anxiety/panic forum.. but I feel I cannot post what I feel there, as at the moment, I am not feeling anxious or panicky.
In fact I have been depressed for some weeks, and don't know what to do.
I have become reclusive. I hate seeing people, but try to cover it up with drinking and such, and dating tons of people.
I am on Lexapro and Ativan, but I have my doubts the Lexapro is even working because I feel so down and "not willing to do anything" that I can't even get out of bed most days.
I couldn't get of bed today. I blamed it on being sick, when really I didn't even want to move and could have layed there forever, just thinking about nothing.
I've always been depressed... my whole life in fact... bouts of strong feelings of depression so overwhelming and manic I want to just end it, but don't.
I don't even know why I'm depressed, I just am. I can't shake myself of this, and it's frustrating.
I just needed to talk.
To any that have read this, thanks for listening.