Posted 2/14/2007 1:16 PM (GMT -6)
I started taking 10mg of Lexapro Jan 25. I started feeling much better in a few hours. The first day I noticed a slight lump in my throat. Gradually the lump got worse. I went 2 days not being able to keep any food down because of the lump. I called the doctor and she told me to quit taking it for a few days and see if the lump went away. The 10 days I was taking the meds were the best 10 days I have had in years. No tears, no fears, I felt invincible. I was ok off the Lexapro for a week. The 8 and 9th day off the meds were a bear. My mind started playing games with me again. All my old fears started coming back. So Monday I started back on the meds. So far the meds aren't working. The first time I took the meds they started working within a few hours. It's been 2 days and they haven't kicked in yet. Stupid things that shouldn't upset me are now having my stomach in knots. For instance... my town is under a Level 2 Snow Emergency. It's Valentines Day and my sweetie decided he needed to go into the office. His job would not have been in jeopardy had he not went, the town is under the snow emergency. I'm feeling as if he has chosen to spend his Valentines Day with co-workers rather than home cuddling with me. Are my feelings warranted or should I feel proud that my sweetie is dedicated and motivated enough to his job? These silly thoughts go through my mind all the time. My sweetie loves me and would never mess around on me or do anything purposely to hurt me. So why do I feel so hurt that he went to work today? I need to know if my hurt is warranted or if it's just the depression playing mind games with me. What are your thoughts? If it is my depression, has anyone else been off the Lexapro for a little while then went back on? Did you react differently to the meds the second time around? Any advice, words of wisdom, etc would greatly be appreciated. Thanks.