Hi Victoria, I'm on Fluoxetine. I have never taken and ad's before, so this is my first experience. They seemed to take an absolute age to kick in, my doc upped my dose a couple of times since October when I started, but I really don't want to take these 'forever', so have been reducing my dose since mid January. I am trying to just take each day as it comes. I have had 2 really bad meltdowns since mid december, but seem to be getting through things. Being on meds makes me feel like a failure, like I am not strong enough to deal with things myself, that on its own seems to be able to start me on a downer, you just can't win! I have slept nearly all day today, I put my PC on this morning and the next thing I knew it was 6pm. I guess I have been overdoing it a little since the op. I just seem to need to be constantly busy. If I am busy, I don't have time to let the depression kick in. Does that make sense? I sometimes wonder if I am just hiding behind a facade. I am trying my best to confront my issues, but sometimes it's just too hard. Today I feel like I have been living like an imposter, bright and cheery beacuse that's what people expect.
Oh well, there is always tomorrow to feel better, life isn't perfect is it.
I think I am expecting that depression won't stay with me forever now that I have admitted it to myself. Can this be true do you think? I work on it every day, but the things that I have dealt with are still there, I think I thought that they would go away I suppose. Which makes me question how on earth we are supposed to get better.
Oh dear, today I don't know what I am thinking, really sorry.
Hope you are well