Hi Fussketeer: For the first few sentences of your message I felt like I was reading pretty close to my own bio. I am 39 years old (6 weeks shy of 40
). I have been as depressed for as long as I can remember - along with the panic attacks. I have been on meds on and off since my 20's as well - however, very regularly for the past 5 years.
I'll skip over many of the "wonderful" highlights of my life except for the fact that I was sexually abused as well.....I am also recently divorced and a single mom of two wonderful girls. I have gone back to graduate school to become a teacher. However, as of 3 days ago, I just flunked my 3rd class. And not because I couldn't handle the material. Whatever I handed in got A's. The problem was handing it in. I have cried, started for 8-10 hours at a shot at my computer (when the girls were with there dad) and simply could not muster up the energy to do it. Weepy, no self-confidence, and on and on. I saw my therapist (who prescribes as she is an APRN) and asked her what was so incredibly wrong with me. She switched me from Zoloft to Cymbalta (30 mg) and I just started 2 nights ago. (I am also on Lamictal and Trazadone.) I was so scared and didn't want to take it. But the very next morning I woke up feeling a lot better and today I couldn't be stopped. I feel slightly racey, and a little nauseous (sp??) but I feel like I just swallowed a happy pill. I pray to God that this isn't too good to be true. Also, I'm not cold...I get hot very quickly. As I was on an SSRI before manybe this is why it is working so quickly. It's just the 2nd half of this drug that must be making the difference.
I know different drugs effect each of us differently. But please don't give up..give it a chance. For the first time in at least ten years I feel like maybe there is hope. If I keep feeling like this I can hopefully pick myself up, get passing grades again and get through my program.
I apologize for the length of this, but until three days ago, I had no hope and was so tired of trying. I know I'll have bad days again too, but it's been so nice to have 2 good ones.
I'll keep you in my thoughts. Please just hang in there!!
Post Edited (CassandraLee) : 7/4/2007 8:46:01 PM (GMT-6)