I can really and truly understand what you are going through. Last year I began suffering flashbacks from my childhood and everything from the past that i had tried so desperatley to hide and forget was coming back to haunt me and I could not cope. In september things got so bad, I had a breakdown and was admitted to a psych hospital where I stayed for 4 months. I had been so terrified all my life that I couldnt even talk to my father and boyfriend and my friends about
the abuse I had suffered at the hands of my mother and her boyfriend. I have no contact with my mother anymore and have no idea where her boyfriend is. I never want to see my mother again for as long as I live. I was put on medication in hospital and this has really helped me.
It helped to eventually tell the people around me what I had been through, and at first it was difficult for them. But the more they tried to understand and help, the more they got used to it.
Are you on any meds at the moment? It sounds like you are at a very low point and you need to seek professional help. One session of counselling every 6 weeks isn't a lot. It must be hard for you if your hubby is not coping too well, he is obviousley hurting and can't bring homself to try and understand. It is hard for him to come to terms with what happened to someone he loves.
Please seek advice from your doctor or even see another doctor if you can. You need to get some help for the depression and post traumatic stress. I wonder of there are any support groups in your area you could attend. I know we have support groups in our town for adult survivors of abuse. Thats something you could ask your doctor about
or look up on the internet.
Kepp in touch with us and we are always here to support. We arent medical professionals here but a lot of members have been through and are going through what you have so we can support and help any way we can.
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