Welcome to Healing Well. I can really relate to what both you and restless are going through. I am 24 and I let my childhood ruin my life for too long and kept so much to myself until last year when I had a breakdown due to it all.
I was in such a deep dark hole and I saw no way out at all. I was admitted to a psych hospital and I too, at first, thought - oh i ll be better in a couple of weeks, I wont be here long. I actually stayed there for 4 months.
It has taken a while but I am getting there and I am doing so much better - I am even back at work. I saw no way out - but there is....trust me. I know its hard for you to see right now, but it will get better.
Are you under the care of a doctor for your depression? Do you take any meds? You need to see a professional about
the way that you are feeling. It can be a long road out of depression, but you can get better.
I'm glad that you both found this site. Post anytime and take care.
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