Ok 2 weeks ago our garage started on fire,and took out both of our cars,along with 2 of our landlords cars.
Since then we have had to buy a used car to get us to work. Our landlord did not have insurance on his property,and now we think he does not even have a renters license. And because of that our insurance ageny is hiring a fire investagator because they are afraid that he is going to sue them.
We need to move out of this place,and have been saving to buy a house,but writing a check for another car has taken a big hit on our house savings.
I am trying to stay positive. But,either of us are sleeping and eating right. I know he has lost at least 10 lbs,and I have lost about 5 so far.
Everytime we talk about it,I try to say things will work out.But then his dad calls,and starts talking about all of the bad things that can happen,and it is making my b/f physically ill.
I am getting to the point to where I dont even want to come home. I have to look at a burned down garage, he is snapping at me over stupid crap,and I just want to sit down and cry.
The panic attacks are very harsh right now. I don't have health insurance,so going to the doctor is an expense that I can't afford myself.And I will not ask him to pay for it.
Then I am angry at my family as not one of them have called to see if we are ok.Or ask how things are going.
I know his parents are just worried about us,but they are not handling it the right way. But at least they are concerned. My family yet again has just left me to my own devices and I guess out of sight,out of mind.
I think my brother is mad at me because he is getting married in Vegas in May,and I can not afford to pay for a vegas trip. I know they are expecting my b/f to pay for it,and that just ticks me off. Expecially now since he is loosing money.
I miss my kids. They are finally coming next weekend. So,that should be a good weekend I hope.
Our trip to Florida last week was very frustrating as all we heard about while we were there was we had to get a house,we had to get married ect ect. I could not wait to get out of there.
I am just so frustrated,and I am worried I am going to have a major melt down. Or he is going to have a major meltdown.And I am not sure I can mentally handle that.
I feel like it is my job to keep him healthy,but so far I am not doing a very good job I don't feel. He can't afford to lose any weight,and I sure can't due to my sickness.
I just want to run away and hide,and come out when everything is better.
Thanks for letting me vent.
Chronic Depression, Panic Attacks,Anxiety Attacks,Anorexia