Hi there restless..
Well, I think it's time for you to take control of your life..it's not gonna be easy because you are on a low just now...but hey it's a day by day thing
Don't worry about your husband not understanding, coz unless you have been there and done depression you really havn't got any idea what's going on..some do try and that's fantastic..but hey this is about you this time and starting to feel good about yourself again.
So, first things first, it strikes me that your meds need to be adjusted and/or taken every day at least..I know it annoys me I have to medicate daily..but if we were diabetics, would we take insulin? Yup we would..and hey it's no different for us!
How about making the first move towards talking to your mum...it doesn't have to be about how you are feeling or anything in particular..just open the door a little and see what happens..seems like you are both missing out on each other..and she is missing out on enjoying the grandkids.
Counselling would be fantastic for you..but if not possible how about looking under resources on your righthand side of this page..look under books and hunt some down at your local library...
Day to day tasks can be simplified by writing a list of routine things starting with getting up and showered etc...tick each one off as you go and be Proud of your every success...you Can do this ok! Add a few more things to do every couple of days and see how you get on
I wish you well. Take good care and keep posting.
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