have been babysitting and working with kids (mostly prof's kids) at the campus school (where local kids can go and where students from the college learn how to be teachers) for extra money - and have found that this activity, which i thought would be, if anything, therapeutic, to be even more depressing. not that i didnt know that it was going to be a handfull... that part i signed on for. the horrible part is that i feel so unappreciated. i know that this sounds stupid, but that then propogates my anxiety that everyone already thinks nothing of me (friends, classmates, etc.) ... the worst part is that working with kids used to be enjoyable for me - i have been a camp counselor - and now it just makes me wish that someone was still taking care of me !!! when kids get sick at school, we call their parents and they get to go home. they get to lay up on the couch, avoid homework, get taken care of... what happens if i get sick? i get to go to health services where no one is helpful, trudge back to my dorm room and plow through homework so i don't fail. i know i'm supposed to be an adult and that life isn't supposed to be easy - but i feel like such a baby. i don't know if this is at all coherent... but HELP!!!