Hi Christina, It is really good to hear that everyone is being supportive to you when you need it most. Don't feel bad about 'feeling better', it sounds to me from you post that you are a very strong person who probably is more used to hiding how you feel and helping others get through their day than the other way round.
My depression has always been up and down, and i have really low self esteem and confidence, and I often feel that I don't deserve my (very supportive) husbands help/care/love etc. I think it is the nature of me, always brushing things off like its not a big deal. Well, I am learning that it is a big deal - your feelings count just as much as everyone elses and you do deserve to take time out to work out what to do next, just because you have a good day today does not mean it will be great tommorrow - but if it is - then that's a bonus.
Sometimes getting things out in the open can lift such a weight off of your shoulders that things don't seem so bad, eve though they might be. A problem shared is a problem halved as they say. But remember that something did get you in your depressive state in the first place, so take some time to try and work out what that was so that you can work on it and don't go back to the way things were.
Its not wrong to ask for help, and there are so many ways in which our minds and bodies cry out for it, sometimes with the result leaving us a little bewildered. Take it a day at a time and if you feel good then find the pleasure in it. I hope your meds do start to work and that you keep your psych appointment. Don't stop on your road to recovery until you really feel you have reached the point where you can move onwards and upwards!
Wishing you lots of luck and sending you hugs! Keep us up to date!
Take care, wizzer