Welcome to the board Kelz...I am very glad that you found us.
Your post makes alot of sense. And all of the symptons are a sign of depression. The only way to know for sure though is going to see a Doctor.
I know it is scary,and when you don't have support from family or friends that makes things worse.
When you see a Doctor for the first time,you will feel so relieved.
You have alot to live for,and I can tell you are a very strong person.
Please post as much as you need to ..you will find that there are alot of people on this site that have great advice and big hearts.
I am leaving with you with a couple of help sites that you should check out..depression.about.com/cs/diagnosis/f/amidepressed.htmwww.helpguide.org/mental/depression_tips.htm
Chronic Depression, Panic Attacks,Anxiety Attacks,Anorexia