Posted 3/4/2007 11:03 PM (GMT -7)
It went ok. I was actually thinking the worst about going there... thinking maybe she would turn me away like the last one did, but she was actually extremely nice and told me I need quite a few sessions so she is applying for 10 at first because that is the limit for now then she will apply for more when those sessions are up. She and I clicked quite easily but I still couldn't tell her everything because I only just met her and I have a hard time talking about my feelings. I am so relieved the first appointment is over with. It was very hard but I am just so glad she is nice. She has a background in mental health department at the hospital as a nurse as well... she has quite a lot of qualifications and she loves her job. So yeah it went really well. Now I have a question and answer sheet to fill in so she can get to know me a bit more. I see her again on 26th March. She doesn't like the fact that there is a big break in between sessions but I have to go away for a week. Anyway I get to call her or text message her throughout that time. We even made a verbal contract that I won't attempt to do anything unsafe to myself without talking with her first. We even talked 15 minutes more than we were supposed to and she didn't mind. Maybe I was the last client for the day. I am just so relieved. I feel like I have a safety net now to catch me if I fall off the trapeze. It seems less scary now. I just have to get through all these feelings and flashbacks of abuse and things. I know it will take a while and I am not expecting miracles this time. Anyway thats all for now. Catch ya later.