The way a psychiatrist explained it to me, The thing about
non-prescribed drugs is that you THINK they are helping you, but they are not. They seem to be friends, but they are your enemy, as they do interfere with your prescribed medication and your recovery. In other words, your doctor is trying to get your chemistry balanced, but when you use street drugs, you are throwing it all out of whack again.
Not meaning to lecture here, Arguy, it's just that a few years ago I was really into the self-medicating thing. I thought the ** I was smoking was fixing my thinking, etc. Hell-o! I got myself a one-way ticket back to the psychiatric hospital, and when my psychiatrist learned of my at-home pharmacology experiments, he was NOT pleased. "You do realize that ** is a depressant, do you not?" Back to the drawing board for me, feeling really stupid about
what I had done. While I never got addicted to **, I did screw up and do stupid things while on it. This only added to my feelings of low self-worth.
You keep mentioning your addiction, so what about
a 12-step group? Or a therapist who specializes in addiction? Or maybe both?
I have an ex boyfriend who is still drinking and drugging daily WHILE he is on anti-depressants. He is STILL depressed. So he drinks and drugs more. I had to break up with him.
Okay, I am climbing off my soapbox now.
I care about
you, Arguy. I really do.
I am very sorry zinniagirl but, I have had to edit parts of your post due to forum rule #1 of no discussions of illegal substances. I do hope you understand...by the way, great input here Thank you ~ Elisha
Post Edited By Moderator (els) : 3/9/2007 6:20:16 PM (GMT-7)