It all makes sense Scotsgal
One of the major signs of depression is not enjoying the things that you used to love. It sounds to me that is your b/f.
I too have gotten just like that. I worry that I am not good enough,or even have the paranoid thoughts of him leaving me and then what would I do.
I think we do that to "punish" ourselves persay. It is almost like we think we don't deserve to have any type of happiness so we push it away.
My relationship has suffered because of that. And I am working so hard to push those negative thoughts away and enjoy finally being with someone that treats me like a queen and cares about
If your other half did not care,he would not be there. If he wanted to leave,he would have done it.
You need to give him more credit. If he supports you,knows about
your disease and does everything right. Then he loves you.
Here is a test for your own mind.
Can you imagine not being with him? Think about
your future....is he in it? Do you get a pain in your stomach when you think about
him not being there?
If you answer yes to those questions then you are right where you need to be.
I have to ask myself that when I get down. I am super sensitive to him..if he gets frustrated with me,or life in general and snaps at me,I take it very personal. I try not too...but I am so afraid of our relationship going sour that I just can't help it.
You need to talk to him. Tell him your worries,tell him what you want and where you see each other in 5 years.
Then go from there.
If I remember right it has been 3-4 weeks since you started your new meds...is that right?
If you still don't feel better in a few days,I think it is time to call your doctor.
Stay strong Scotsgal!!!
Chronic Depression, Panic Attacks,Anxiety Attacks,Anorexia