Hiya. Been on ad for 3 weeks now and all seemed to be going pretty well. Now, well the last few days been waking up feeling terrible just really low, tearful, cranky etc, I have just came off 'time of the month' so dont know if that is whats caused it but it just seems such a fall from how happy ive been. Its sent me back into the confusion and frustration i was in before,and the horrible dark feeling that was hauting me has yet again returned to dominate my daily life. I hate it I just want to feel normal again :( I seem to vent well focus all my depression on my relationship, which is ruining it on my behalf. I seem to have a minor anxiety attack thinking about
it a lot, but he hasn't done anything wrong unless support me 100% along the way is a crime. My councillor said I am doing this because it is the main thing in my life. It is killing me though. I really don't want to feel like thi towards him and our relationship as I love him to bits and it all seemed to snap from one day to the next. My heart seems to skip a beat if anyone even suggests 'Is maybe your relationship causing the depression' and i can truthfully say no because i started feeling rubbish first then it kind of esculated to me being paranoid, and i know this doesn't make sense but I was sure that I was right and he didnt want me and my mind seemed to make everything seem 1000 worse than they really were. It kind of felt like a breakdown!I would just like to know if anyone elses relationship has been affected in this way because I hate to think I am he only person in the world feeling like this. This bothers me every minute of the day. I just wish I could sleep non-stop beaucse its the only time I get a rest and am not dwelling on feeling so low and this horrible feeling and thought circle takes over. I dread mornings and look forward to gong to bed which I usually go to as early as poss to escape this! Sorry its been so long. I just had to get that off my chest!