I keep changing how I'm feeling today, I go from being having to being depressed. Keep getting like this. I was all okay a couple of weeks ago. Just when I thought I was getting over it and getting my life back to normal, depression comes back. It's destorying my relationship and my friendships. It's just not fair! I've been struggling to get out of bed this week, thing is I don't even know why I'm feeling like this I have no reason to be depressed anymore. I sat up most of the night Monday crying my eyes out while my girlfriend was sleeping. I need to get things back on track, I don't want to go back to how it was before - staying in bed all day, feeling sorry for myself. That self pitty thing really sucks. Only problem is I don't know how to pull myself out of it. At the moment my time is spent eating, drinking, smoking sleeping and arguing with my family. I've been to a dr about this before and he put me on meds prozak but they made me worse. I'm only 17 so am restricted to meds and canceling makes me very nervous. So I'm basically going to have to help myself get out of it, if I could only find a way to do that.