Restless, have to read any books about healing? When I was going through coucilling I was asked to read, I think it was called: The courage to heal. I read the original but I think there are more now.
It was extremely hard to read. But it forced me to face some things I never wanted to go back to. At the end, there was a chapter for spouces to read. Very informative and helped my marriage out a lot.
Several times I had to put the book down and cry. You become almost sick. Not just your mind, but your whole body suffers. When I went through this I was also dx with Ucerative Colitis and had kidneystones. I needed sleeping pills, ativan and anti-depressants just to function. But I believe you have to relive it all, process it all and know that in time it will get easier. In the end, I was on the road to healing. The forgiving of the abuser never came, but my self forgiveness did.
I just wish I had this board to help, because it is easier to let it out to others who experience the same things. You are not alone.
Left sided UC dx 03
1200 asacol daily
30mg Celexa daily & rising as anxiety is back
Suffering from a bad case of menopause!