I am really thinking about
going to the hospital tomorrow, whenever I wake up that is. I called lifenet but the numbers that I received from them and called said the wait time for an appointment to see a phsyke is 3 months. I was going to a gp that had me on lexapro 20mg and buspirone for anxiety for about
2 years along with ambien 10mg at night as I'm a very light sleeper, and it worked wonders, then I became complacent and didn't go back to see the doc for 9 months. when I finally did go back to see the doc he was no longer working at the clinic, and the present gp/doc said he was not qualified to give ads, and neither was the last and that I should have never been given them, if I wanted the meds I'd need to see a phsyke, I said thanks for wasting my time and left. I feel I've wasted a lot of time, as I've been in a deep depression with anxiety for quite some time.
I work as a independent computer consultant and have lost a lot of potential clients because of this illness. One client wanted their money back because I wouldn't go back to do some more work, which was optional of course, no contract or anything. I went so far as to change my phone number so they would think I was unreliable, as its embarrassing to tell anyone about
my problems. Fact is I just couldn't get out of bed, anywho they found my new number, and called me and decided to threaten me with bodily harm via voicemail, not very bright, and said one day I'd be going on a fake service call and they'd be waiting for me, I saved the voicemail recording to cd, as if my anxiety wasn't bad enough.
My apolgies for rambling on. I'll let you all know how tomorrow turns out as we all know moods change, and ideas come around.
Post Edited (georgeglass512) : 4/6/2007 2:11:18 PM (GMT-6)