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Date Joined Feb 2007
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   Posted 4/7/2007 5:51 AM (GMT -6)   
I'm feeling a bit better now mood wise but I still feel very weird :S If I think about how I would feel in a certain situation my body and mind seem to go all blurry-if that makes sense! Also in certain situations I have not been myself, for instance my dog died last week and I cried at the time but the next day it was like it had never happened!
I lost my other dog back in Oct and i cried for days after it!
My depression was really bad back in the last few months I couldn't concentrate I cried all the time, I didn't want to do anything I just wanted to be alone. My meds have been upped and I must admit they've worked a bit on this as the only thing I feel is teary, but now I feel like I don't have a mood atall. good or bad!
I also apparently suffer anxiety but  don't have 'attacks' so I don't know how I do?! But the last 5 days I havn't been able to breath properly i've had to take a huge breath to breathe in and a hugensighnto breathe out properly I don't know why this is!
I also seem to have this weird feeling towards my bf its like whenever I think about him/the future and blah I get this tight, short of breath feeling around my heart like someones smothering it.
I hate feeling like this towards him as on the other hand I can still act fiarly normal with him, and I like cuddling him etc but that feeling gets in the road. I don't have this feeling towards anyone else and he hasn't done anything but I do get a similar feeling when something bad has or is going to happen or I get a frigt which I seem to be getting from really silly things.
Seeing as there is only these few things wrong with me now, have I never hd depression and I've made all this up. I just don't understand why this happened to me in the first place I had a great life!

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   Posted 4/7/2007 7:22 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi Scotsgal,
Sometimes it is hard to pinpoint what actually sparked the depression,whether it was something that happened when we were children,or just on going little things that happens as adults.
Or simply we are not happy with how our lives have turned out and become depressed over that.
I too felt the "no emotions" on different types of meds,and I had to contact my doctor because I felt like I was walking around like a zombie.
Now that I am off of meds I can become very emotional over silly things,and I sometimes wish for the zombie feeling.

You need to sit down and try to figure out what sparked your depression, like I said it could have been a number of little things that just caught up with you.

Also, maybe having a full physical and making sure that they have no missed something. And since we are women we do tend to get very moody at certain times of the month. Has your menstrual cycle changed? Just some things to think about.
I am glad your meds are helping and I hope they continue.

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Date Joined Mar 2007
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   Posted 4/7/2007 6:40 PM (GMT -6)   

I was wondering about the breathing thing too, keep me posted on what you find out about that. I unfortuneately forgot to tell my doctor about it yesterday. Man! I've been really forgettful these days! Actually, that strange feeling that you're having, I found a way to somewhat ease that feeling. When I was feeling like that, I went outside and just sat there just looking out into the world. The fresh air helped, or maybe it was just going to my head. I'm not quite sure. Hope you and your bf balance out, and I hope you feel better. :)


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   Posted 4/8/2007 12:29 PM (GMT -6)   
Controlling your breathing is a skill that once you start practising it will kick in automatically when you become anxious..some people hyperventilate (short breaths) and some hold their breath..I am a 'holding my breath' kinda gal lol..you can practise deep steady breathing any old time and will be suprised how by doing this anxiety melts away and you can take control..yahoo!
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