Low after High?

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   Posted 4/7/2007 5:52 PM (GMT -6)   
I have been on Lexapro 20mgs for 8 weeks and Trazodone 50mgs for 6 weeks.  For a while after beginning the medications I was actually getting worse, then it started to get better. Two weeks ago I felt like I was waking from a bad dream.  I was fine for a few days- and then I started to slip again.
I feel like I did before my emotions got really bad last time.  That numb, dream-like state.
I started counseling- and I am terrified of it. I don't mind the talking, but I am stirring up emotions that I have hidden from for a long time.  I'm not sure if the numbness and depression might not be better than what the counseling brings up.
On Tuesday and Wednesday I went to a conference where I was really in my element.  I had a wonderful time, and except for a few fleeting moments, it was like I wasn't even depressed.  Normally, after a conference I have energy for weeks. This time I couldn't even drive home without getting exhausted.  I slept for hours, and the next few days have been in one of the deepest lows of my life.
Yesterday, I couldn't carry on a conversation. I would repeat the same idea a few times and walk away without finishing the idea. I couldn't concentrate on the other person to follow what they said.  I cried in my office and tried to do watever paperwork I could to stay there.
I feel like the good feelings that I had before were all a dream. A low after a high is perfectly normal, but it shouldn't go this low.  I don't even know if this is normal, or if someting is wrong.
What do you think?  I'm not sure where I am.

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   Posted 4/8/2007 4:06 AM (GMT -6)   
I think you maybe need to go back to your doctor and talk about how you have been feeling. He may suggest an increase in your meds or try you on something different. I think what you are experiencing is normal depression - people can have up and down days where they can be fine and then feel extremely low. Depression is a long road with many bumps in it. Every day is different but you will get there in the end so have faith.
Talk to your doctor for some support and advice so that you are not worrying about this.

Victoria x

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   Posted 4/8/2007 12:18 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi Christina
Victoria has given great advice..best to go back to your doctor...6-8 weeks is very early on to be feeling steady on these meds, however best to check. You are doing extremely well dear :-) and yes counselling will stir up things for a while - from experience, I had to learn that it was ok to examine past events but two things to remember to do...
1. remind myself that these are just memories now, traumatic as they may have been - they are history (thank goodness)
2. once I had finished looking back, it was time to pop these memories into an imaginary package and tie a large piece of string around it and stuff it in the wardrobe - right at the back!
In other words..let it all go..because without these events happening in our lives - how can we possibly be the compassionate and understanding people we are today..we have life experiences and we are survivors!! yeah
Keep posting, and lavish yourself with heaps of self praise for your bravery tongue  
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