You are absolutely right Shy. I would love to have such a punching bag, too. Ah, guess my neighbours could be a bit bothered to hear me punching it day and night. I will post what happened to me, but not now. The best time to get close to this stuff is close to therapy, so weekend or monday will be a good time. If I go to far and destabilize myself again I am in no big trouble for many days, just one or two. I know I have to get to my limits and step over them a bit, but I know also if I can't close the door afterwards, all this nasty scruffy looking demons come out and chase me all over the place. So please be patient with me. Actually, I enjoy in moment that I am feeling quite well again and probably can feel even the fun of my riding lesson this afternoon. I wouldn't want to spoil that today.