But,I decided that I do not want to ever go back to the way I was. I want to be able to wake up every day without feeling like I want to end my life.
It has been a very long road. And I am still amazed that I was able to survive it.
What I am trying to tell you is that you can get better. It is a long road. And you will go through alot of pain.
But,you can get better.
Life deals you harsh hands at times. But,if you are strong then you will survive.
Please feel hugged if you like. It is more difficult to write the past than to read it if someone is not involved, but even reading it was quite a heavy thing for me right now. You are a strong and very brave person! And I wish you that your wish comes true and you fight the depression and panik and suizidal thoughts.
@confused/angry There is no need to have a vita like this to be depressed. There are many many reasons and causes for Depression. A vita like this is an extreme and it is a miracle someone can survive that at all. But developing a depression is not about
how heavy an incident is, but how you are able to cope with it and this is something which changes from personality to personality. Believe me, whatever happened, the pain of the depression is still real and disabling. No matter what age, no matter what started it.