Hi rehabnurse, I am so sorry for all your going through! I know it is difficult when you dont have a good support system in place to help. I can relate to the many physical illnesses...I have had Multiple Sclerosis for almost 6 yr now and was diagnosed with Multiple System Atrophy a yr and half ago. I had to quit my job and move back home with my mother due to spells of orthostatic hypotension which still are not quite under control. Lucky for me my mom is a nurse...but she does hover quite a bit.
Cobra sucks...have been there, am there now. And I also went through a nasty divorce from a guy who was emotionaly abusive. But in the end I can say I was lucky as I cant imagine going through all this with that jerk attached to my pant leg.
When your so sick it is hard to get out of bed I know it is difficult to think of anything other than all the negative things going on. But believe me just rehashing then in your mind isnt going to do any good or make you any better. All it will do is add stress to you. Depression is very sneaky so if you think that your suffering from it then talk to your doctor. Your a nurse and know what it can do and how devasting it can be. Dont listen to your mother, it sounds like she wants to control things...maybe has good intentions but doesnt have any idea what effect her words are having on you. I bet when you were a working nurse you had no problem taking control of things and situations...right? Well, you will have to do that now too, not that you arent but you may have to be more forceful in certain areas.
Please know that we are always here for you and you are welcome to post here anytime. I am sure you also saw our other thread on the abuse...when your ready, if you want you can post there sometime too if you like. It's hard I know but it does help. Take care dear and BIG HUGS to you