hi everyone, im usually over on the colitis board but i've been reading the posts on here for a while now. i struggled through a flare for about
the past 2 years and now i just always feel sad. im act all happy when im around people but i always look foward to being home with no one around. i also started self injuring but i know we cant talk about
people at school see me as the innocent perfect girl. its like i want people to know whats really going on like i just wanna scream out for help but im afraid of what they'll think or i'll scare them.
i also dont want to disapoint my family i spend as much time as i can away from them (sleep during the day stay up late when they sleep)
i cant stay have close relationships cause i get so angry or annoyed for no reason once someone gets close
im stuck cause the image i've always had i dont want people to think im a freak and im not sure my parents would believe me if i told them how i really feel..i feel like a huge lie
thanks for any responses