we all feel pain uniquely and express i tindividually. i don't believe there is a "right" way or a "wrong " way to express your grief. if it continues to overwhelm you, then you might consider professional assistance.
we had two cats, a ginger one, who was the queen of all she surcveyed, and a black one, who enjoyed roaming. we got them when we were living in england. the black one would often meet me at on my way home from the train station and we would race to see who could get to the house the fastest.
after we moved to the states, eventually we moved tp philadelphia. i was eating my breakfast of milk and cereal and the black cat insisted in joining me - so i got him a saucer and he slurped up every drop. i then adjusted his collar because he had managed to work it lost. i let him out the bcak door and went on to work. later that afternoon my wife phoned me o tell me that the black cat had died. i was devestated. i don't remember leaving to office of driving home. there was my wife rocking thee cat in a blanket, crying. i cried, too - and i NEVER cry. i found a pet crematorium and the ladies who ran it came right over and handled everything with sympathy and grace.
that was over 25 yrs ago. i am now 61 yrs old. sometimes, when i think og leo, i still cry. if you have ever had a loving, caring, pet like that, you know exactly what i mean.
is there is right or wrong way to feel when youve lost a friend, lover, confidant, and joy in your life? i don't think so. just as our pets are individual, so, too, we ae qunque.
That light at the end of he tunnel? It's an on-coming train.