Today I told my boyfriend that I was going to start taking antidepressants, that I already have an appointment. He told me if he found them, he'd just flush them down the toilet.
My boyfriend is very much against psychotropic drugs and therapy, he thinks psychiatrists are just crooks/quacks and that antidepressants are addictive and harmful and not a solution but causing a bigger problem. I, on the other hand, honestly feel like this is my best option right now and I don't know how to make him understand that.
I'm doing this for him as much as for myself. I know my moodiness and jealousy and irrational anxiety and irritability puts a strain on our relationship. I know if I could fix this, we would be so much better. But I don't have his support in this and it almost makes me feel guilty for wanting to take them, and I know I'll have to hide them and be secretive about
it and I don't want that.
What should I do? Is there any way to make someone so stubborn understand? I think he might feel that it's an insult to him, like he can't make me happy or worse, he's making me depressed enough to take drugs, but it's not him. It has nothing to do with him. I'm just broken.