For starters let's begin when I was a child (not my whole childhood). My mother tried to harm herself several times. Reason being that she could not get a man to stay in her life because she had 5 children (all girls). This is something that we are all supposed to forget happened. Well, I am 35 now and I have forgiven my mom but I have not forgotten what she has done especially the blame that was placed on us girls.
I am happily married & have a wonderful daughter (she's my step but in my heart she is my daugther). I am 35 and a very sick woman. I suffer each & everyday & Of course I suffer from major depression.
What I am wanting to know is how can I cope with how my mother is acting? She has informed me that I am selfish for being so sick and other things that I care not to say. But about a month ago she told me that she wanted to die and that if she tries it this time she will succeed. I told her that if she didn't stop talking about that, that I was going to take her to Behavorial health instead of taking her to have her colonoscopy done. This is really saddening to me. I called to try to see if there was anyway I could step in to help my mother and this was the answer I got: 'It has to be either her husband, her parents, her siblings or her oldest child'. Well, that leaves me out because I am the 3rd child. She also informed me that she was not going to let me die before her. If she knew that it was getting close for me, then she would kill herself.
Now someone tell me how I am supposed to cope when my mother says these things to me?? I have enough to deal with and now how am I supposed to deal with what she is saying to me?????? I have a long road a head of me and I supposed to feel quilty about being sick just because my mother can't handle it. Does she even think about what she is doing to me? For her to tell me that she would make sure she died before I did, that is totally selfish to me. So how am I supposed to cope??????
I am sorry but I have edited part of your post due to rule #1. Mostly because it was graphic and we do have kids/teenagers that post here. Please lets not get into specifics/details regarding this. Thank you - Elisha
Post Edited By Moderator (els) : 5/19/2007 10:28:08 AM (GMT-6)