Posted 5/20/2007 12:45 PM (GMT -6)
Last week Tuesday I felt great (see post: Meds Working???). By Friday I had slipped again. While I felt great I got to work on all the things that I had been meaning to get to.
At work there were reports to write, clients to contact, stock to track down, meetings to attend, backlogged charting to write, etc.
At home there was the laundry, the living room, the bedroom, the kitchen, the bathroom, the yard (all were disasters).
There are 3 beautiful girls that still want to cuddle and play and go to the park. They need to be brought to ballet and karate for lessons 3 time a week.
I am gearing up for school, so I have forms to fill out and I need to figure out how to pay for food while I go to school. I need to figure out what I need to do and then get that done.
Then there is church. I am in leadership (and they are my support group) and the responsibilities are heavy. I am signed up for survey collection and advertisement for a kid's party June 3. (create fliers, invitations, radio spots, posters and get them distributed though the area) I also have to be there for Sunday morning and evening services and Wednesday evening prayer meetings.
Shortly after the "fog" lifted I made an assessment of what I needed to do, and became paralized. It was too much. I couldn't do it all, so I couldn't do anything. I got depressed again because I was overwhelmed.
I did a couple of things in the right direction. I gave away the advertisement responsibility. The survey is done for now. I stayed home from Sunday morning services, even though I sent the kids. I made a list and cleaned the kitchen. I'm gonna start on the living room next. I still feel overwhelmed.
Have any of you done this, feel a little bit better and go overbord? I just want to get better. I want to beat this thing. I think I am winning, then round two comes along and I fall flat. Recovery makes me worse? What is your take?
When you cannot stand, on whom do you lean?