Hi this is Kitt and I know exactly what your going through. At my worse during my 26 years of depression I would wake up in the morning in bed and start to cry as I did not know what to do next, I could not make decisions.
I cried while putting my make-up on when getting ready to go to work. I cried on my way to work, and then I put on my mask and pretended I was great..............I knew I was in serious trouble and med changes were not working.
I fianlly broke down at work and hid in a corner of my office. I called my good friend and asked her to come up to my office...........when she saw me she went and got my boss who drove me home...........Guess what I am still alive and did not die of humiliation even though I thought I would.
I was in a deep depression, I needed to get into therapy and work with Pdoc on meds. I also took early retirement.
You can hold the tears in but somehow they have a mind of their own and the darn bursts.
I spent days crying and hugging my dog and praying for someone to help me. I woud wash fae and take a big sigh thinking I am ok now and the tears started all over.
I truly agree with Jeanie, you need to see a physician and get to the cause of your tears and the rage you are feeling.
You have the support of all these wonderful people, let them help you and keep posting.
Moderator Anxiety ~ Panic Disorders
Dx: Anxiety/Panic, Depression
"If you doubt you can accomplish something, then you can’t accomplish it. You have to have confidence in your ability, and then be tough enough to follow through.”