I care about you!!! I feel exacly like you do sweetheart!! Let me run this by you ok? I think that you said you were in your 20s if i remember correctly, I am 42 and feel like you do. I wonder to myself everyday is my life ever going to change? I get so hopeless because I am 42 and think to myself, i wish i was younger so i had more time to take things in stride and time. Nicky-you are young and have more opporyunities to grow and learn that you are worthy and needed. I am not taking anything away from "our" illness because your mental abilty has no age barrier.
Please know that people that dont care for you when you feel like this are not worthy of you! I am going to try to find that post when i do i will post it for you on here in this topic, i will look for it in a little while.
I am really depressed lately and i am dealing with feeling abandoned. I actually said to someone today that i really think that if my kids werent here that noone would even know i was gone. i am tired of looking at the sunshine and remembering better days in my life. in my heart of hearts i dont think i will ever be complete, i actually count my days, i feel like everyone is running and i am last in the race, i am so tired believe me!!
Hang tough and now that underneath those stars, there is someone that is TRULY your friend and although i dont know you, i care about you. Believe me i know that is not a big comfort but it is those people that i know care about me no matter what that mean the most to me.
Hang in there sweetheart, KEEP YOUR FAITH!!!
HERE IS THAT POST NICKY~~~(((((HUGS)))))
From a standpoint of having depression and having no friends is that it is imperative that you be A friend!!!!! I have had "acquaintances" that I thought were friends until they needed to be there for me more than I could be there for them, they were no longer. The biggest thing with having a friend with depression is to understand this:
>when you want to talk for hours on the phone and we dont-it is not that we dont want to talk to you it is because maybe our depression keeps us from even wanting to answer the phone
>If you find that you tend to have to share more of the load of being the shoulder, be a bigger shoulder, dont condemn us for not being as good a friend as you are
>When you have great news or have something wonderful happen for you and we seem not to share your excitement, dont take it personal, it is just that we are envious of what you are experiencing because when we experience an event that is that exciting, it is usually the fact that we were able to go a day without a tear.
SO PLEASE.......yes it so hard to be "our" friend and you will sometimes feel unappreciated, believe me when I say this, WE LOVE AND APPRECIATE YOU MORE THAN YOU WILL EVER KNOW!!!!! AND IT IS YOU THAT IS POSSIBLY THE REASON THAT WE LIVE!!! I have no one like this. It is sad and I have not been fortunate enough to have anyone withstand the woes of this illness and has continued to be my best girlfriend even til now.
Good luck to you and remember these things because anyone that reads this will agree that sometimes it is hard just to "be"
"There is in every true woman's heart a spark of heavenly fire,
which lies dormant in the broad daylight of prosperity;
but which kindles up, and beams and blazes in the dark hour of adversity."
Post Edited (faithfully4you) : 6/11/2007 10:46:52 PM (GMT-6)