You know, just reading the replies and typing things out, is making so much difference as is being home from work :-( I'm sure you know about
my constant battle at work, I keep wondering if enough is enough, I have been fighting to stay in the Army for 2.5 years now, the lack of sleep, night/morning pains and sweats just seems to have gotten too much, last night, is the first time I have really thought to myself that I'm so fed up with being in so much pain, hee hee, usually I have the ability to laugh it off, tell myself no pain no gain!
As for being signed off work, well I usually feel so guilty but right now I'm not it's like I'm recognising I really need this time off, for sure my unit are struggling for manpower and I feel bad about
that, but I never asked to get ill.
I got an unexpected email just the other day from my ex platoon commander, he's just finished his time and is no longer in the Army, he told me that I should take care of myself more and that I owe the Company nothing, as I'm one of the nicest guy's in my Corps and always putting the job first, hey I can't begin to tell you how touched I was.
Regarding what Sadsong wrote, I think I maybe am overdoing putting on a smile on my face and giving people the impression I'm coping with things better than I am, but that's an Army thing, It's not right to show signs of weakness whatever the circumstances, just to get on with things is drilled into us from day 1 and it's a hard habit to break.
Oh well, I guess I've rambled on far too long
thanks for being there.
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