I haven't been here in a long time. I've been on treatment for depression for 2-1/2 years, and have been relatively stable for a good while. I still see my therapist every other week, and I've been on Lexapro all this time. I usually take 15mg, but at times I've had to increase my dose to 20mg... I just have a hard time tolerating the higher dose for long (due to muscle twitching and other side effects). Recently there was a death in my family (my closest cousin's husband), and I was feeling overwhelmed again so I raised my dose for a couple of weeks (my doc knows about it). Well, the side effects were bothering me again, so I went back down to 15mg. In addition, I got strep throat and was put on some really strong antibiotics (Levaquin). One of the side effects (supposedly) is that it can interfere with some antidepressants.... I'm not sure if that's what has happened, but the past couple of days I've been feeling VERY depressed. I don't cry (I rarely cry with this med), but I still feel the same overwhelming sadness on the inside. All I want to do is hide under the covers... pretty much like I was in the beginning. I can feel that I could easily become housebound again if I gave in to this.
I'm going back to the doc tomorrow a.m. (sore throat still there...) and plan to let her know about the relapse, but I'm not sure if there's anything she can suggest. I'm not sure if I'm looking for advice, or just a place to talk where others understand. Thanks for letting me rant...
"It's a jungle out there....."
Theme song from "Monk" by Randy Newman
"Turn this car around... I'm goin' back..."