Ok, I don't know if I should start this with "Hi, I'm X and I have MDD".
I don't know why I'm here - suppose I'm just reaching out for attention or sympathy.
me: I'm a 35-year old male from George, South Africa. I have always been melancholic and was first diagnosed with "depression" at university in 1990. In the following ±17 years I've been to numerous psychologists and psychiatrists - usually after severe depressive episodes
I've had Major Depression, General Anxiety, Borderline Disorder, Specific Phobia and OCD.
I've been on a few medications over the years (either generic or Brands if I can remember!): Sulpiride, Fluoxetine (Prozac, Lorien, Nuzac), Imipramine, Amitriptyline, Lorazepam (Ativan), Diazepam (Pax, Valium), Alprazolam (Xanor/Alzam/Xanor), Zopiclone, Zolpidem, Molipaxin, Cipralex, Cymbalta and Seroquel.
I've had some "good" periods. Before my last episode (a few months ago), I've been o.k. for about
2 years, without taking any medication, save for hypnotics every now and then, but not regularly.
I've been on Cymbalta 60mg until yesterday, after Cipralex had zero effect on me. That also did not work - in fact, it worsened my depression. I started getting side-effects from the Cymbalta three days ago: clenching my jaw (bruxism), constant ringing in my ears (tinnitus), acute hearing of normal sounds (hyperacusis), nausea, feeling detached from my body, tongue feeling dead, bleeding gums (!) and total loss of sexual function. Except nausea, I haven't seen any of these in the leaflet! My psychiatrist told me yesterday on the phone to stop "cold turkey".
I can only see my psychiatrist on Friday. He suggested that we try Wellbutrin and Seroquel (for sleep). I'm feeling worse by the hour - hope I make it!
Did I mention that I quit my job on the 31st of May? I just don't care any more. I am (or used to be) a perfectionist, but haven't been cleaning the house the past few weeks. I just couldn't be bothered.
Apparently I'm highly gifted intellectually, intuitive, attractive and people often come to me for advice and company.
But I'm not alive if I'm alone.
I am sorry but I had to edit your post due to rule #1
1. No discussion of any illegal activity or threats of violence. (ie. illicit drug use, including medical marijuana use, threats of suicide or self-injury, or threatened or intended physical harm). Discussions of suicide or self-harm that are deemed negative and therefore potentially injurious to others are also not permitted.
Post Edited By Moderator (ShynSassy) : 6/6/2007 4:58:29 AM (GMT-6)