The 'Happy Person'

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Chasing Rainbows
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Date Joined Jun 2007
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   Posted 6/8/2007 2:30 PM (GMT -6)   
I'm not really sure where to start with this, I've never actually done it before. I guess I'm under that assumtion that people here might understand me. I was really just wondering if anyone has admitted to family members that they think they're depressed?
All my friends and family think I'm the funny one, the person that makes everyone laugh and is happy all the time, but I'm. I cry for hours on end and I feel like all my friends aren't really friends because they don't know. Sometimes I get this feeling, its a strange mix between frustration and sadness, almost a longing and I feel like I just don't want to be here, don't want to do it anymore. If anyone has told someone, how do you go about it?

Thankyou so much, everyones messages have really helped me know that I'm not the only one.

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   Posted 6/8/2007 3:14 PM (GMT -6)   
Hey Chasing Rainbows,

I'm so new to the depression forum and posting my original post on here was such a hard thing for me to do, I have been a member here for a considerable amount of time as I was diagnosed with Ulcerative Colitis in December 2004 and it was whilst searching for information regarding my illness that brought me to HealingWell.

Unfortunately I have very little contact with my family that I don't see any point in telling them, my wife I told on Monday after my doctor told me he suspected I was suffering with depression, that was a very hard thing to do in itself, my wife is a rather strong person and her attitude is one of you should just get on with it, so truthfully I personally don't feel I have any support whatsoever from her, which I can assure you causes plenty of arguments, I too am considered by colleagues as a team player and I dare say the majority of them would consider me as not having a care in the world ha ha ha, how wrong they are :-) But I like it that way.

I do feel it is essential to have somewhere to turn for emotional support and that I guess is why I keep coming back to HealingWell, thankfully the support, advice and encouragement I have received from members here take a considerable amount of the stresses out of my life. Furthermore, I have made some fantastic friends too.

Have you spoken with a doctor about how you are feeling? Of course I'm sure you already know that noone can help you if you don't ask.

Please cone back often there are so many people who will offer you advice or just be there to listen.

Take care.

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Chasing Rainbows
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Date Joined Jun 2007
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   Posted 6/8/2007 5:36 PM (GMT -6)   
I haven't told a doctor since last year, when they offered me tablets, which I declined. I don't really think when I tell people they understand. Once I tried to explain to my mum that somedays, bad days, I felt like I just didn't want to be here, I didn't want this - she didn't seem to understand and simply called me dramatic.

Thanks for your help.

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Date Joined Dec 2006
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   Posted 6/8/2007 8:03 PM (GMT -6)   
Sometimes it's easier to put it out in the form of a letter - much like you did here. A letter might actually get your mum to hear what you're saying. Why did you not take the medication from your doctor? Please at least give it a try. I was pretty skeptical about it myself, but my life is pretty normal now where depression is concerned, and I've had it since puberty. Like you, I was always the clown - trying to cover up the misery and hide it from my family so I wouldn't hurt them. In the process, I hurt myself instead. Of course, back then anti-depressants weren't available so I don't really know what could have been done for me then. If you can't get through to your family, at least go back and try the doc again. You don't have to be miserable. Really! :-)
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