Hi Aurora, I am sorry that you dont get many replies to your posts . That usually happens when people just dont know what to say. It's not that we dont care or dont want to help.
Loneliness is something that is difficult to manage for everyone depression or not when your single or live alone. Do you have any hobbies that you like to do? Something that can fill your time in the evenings? Perhaps you can look for some ways to make your home a place of comfort for you, a place that you look forward to going to and being in. It would be different for everyone I guess but, changing things around, adding candles, new pillows, whatever you can afford to do to make your environment a welcome haven for you.
As for your son with epilepsy...where does he live now? I dont know what state you live in but there are many great group homes that care for people with this disorder. Have you spoken to him regarding this? I think perhaps if you explain to him how you feel, your concerns and reasoning for looking into this he may understand. Also, maybe you could consider having him help you in these decisions if he is able too that way he wont feel as if his power has been taken away from him and he had some input in where he was going. If the idea of putting your son in a home with other disabled people is what is getting you down then try to think of the positive in that situation...which is he will hopefully be able to make some friends there and he will have access to quick medical care/attention when he needs it. Which is the most important factor.
I hope that other members do post with some ideas/suggestions for you. Hang in there and know we are always here for you. Take care