Just wanted to stop by and say, hi.
I can imagine with everything on your mind right now things must be getting quite worrying, but as you mentioned you do have some hobbies/interests, maybe you could increase these by maybe adding writing and photography. maybe you could start writing a book kind of like a biography, start a family tree and put this into your book as well as copies of photographs, once written you could pass this to your sons, I'm sure they'd both love to read it and it would be something which could be passed on to any future family members. Writing helps me take my mind of things and just like a good book sometimes it's so easy to get hooked on what I'm writing.
Of course I believe that it's important to have contact with other members of society, so the support group could be a brilliant meeting point. I know how hard it is for me to motivate myself to go out and do things right now, maybe it's the same for you, but I find that when I do go out it's a great deal easier than I anticipated.
Are you religious? Personally I only tend to go to church for funerals or weddings, even though I am a believer, the reason I ask is I imagine that's another place you could go to make contact with like minded people, maybe your son eho lives with you could attend with you.
I do hope that I have provided something worth considering.
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