I totally know what you mean. I remember walking around and being so jealous of the people that were laughing and smiling. I was so tried of faking it. And just wanted to be happy for one day.
It took me a long time to get there,I had to make alot of changes in my life but I got there for the most part.
I still have bad days, and since I am not on meds I question myself on that decision alot.
Healing takes alot of strength. That is why we are all so strong,we have had to endure so much.
Good luck with your appointment,I am keeping my fingers crossed for you.
Chronic Depression, Panic Attacks,Anxiety Attacks,Anorexia
Meds I have taken throughout the years:Wellbutrin,Tranxene,Paxil,Prozac,Valium,
Currently taking none.www.healingwell.com/donatewww.myspace.com/ShynSassy315
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