First of all I want to welcome you to the forum,I am VERY glad that you found us and I know you will find the support you are looking for.
Ok,a little background here. When I was 12 I was sexually molested by one of my mother's boyfriends. It lasted until I ran away at the age of 15. It was violent and he told me that if I ever told anyone he would kill my family. So of course I believed him.
I had children,and the nightmares haunted me..I finally had to tell my mom. We had never been close,and I still blame her for most of my horrid past. But, I told her when I was 21..and instead of her just simply saying "I am sorry" she went on a rant about
how much it hurt her,that she tried to be a good mom ect ect. I still have not gotten over the anger of that conversation.
Your mom is angry because she feels helpless. She does not know how to react.
She might be blaming it on your father because in her mind he is the man of the house and he should have protected you.
Now,I am confused on the part to where your brother is still walking around?
If he is going to hurt his own sister,what is he going to do with his own children? or a neighbors child?
That is something that you and your family need to think about
Now,I think that your father needs to know what happened. He needs to understand why your mom is so angry,and why you are having so many problems. If he disowns your brother..who cares! The man is not in prison so not having his father speak to him is getting off easy.
Is there anyway that you can get your mom into therapy with you? You can explain to your doctor what your mom's reaction was,and then the next session bring your mom in. That way you have a 3rd party that can help explain things to your mom.
You never get over the pain. It is simple as that. But,you do learn how to not think about
Stay strong,and remember that we are always here for you.
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