I am writing here because i need some help. Five years ago my mother had got into a bad depression i was 15 at the time she was soo depressed that she took her own life. Two years ago i had a very bad anxiety attack and it put me into depersonalization, i have had a anxiety disorder ever since that one attack, with having anxiety i am constanly worried about
my mental health and just about
everything, my thoughts are very out of wack, i fear i am going to loose control, but for the past couple of weeks i have been thinking of how depressed she must have been in order to take her own life, i have been feeling very depressed for about
a month now and i fear that i will get as depressed as my mom was, i fear that the cause of my death will be suicide, i'm not suicidal at all so you don't have to worry but i just fear that it might happen one day..it just makes me depressed to know that depression can actually make someone take there own life.....last sunday i was sitting on my couch with bad anxiety and i started thinking and thinking untill i felt myself sinking into a depressed dark state of mind when i got up and walked around i felt differen't, i felt heavier i felt sick....Im 20 years old i have really good things going for me in my life but this fear is taking over me.....can anyone please tell me what i should do?....i don't want to go on meds i try to stick with the nature source....i just am feeling sick...any positives would be just great...