I have been where you are-completely! I am bipolar and I was in a job that was making my illness impossible to fight. To this day I know for a fact if I would have stayed at that job on more week, I would have landed in the hospital for awhile. So-trust me there are options! However, I didn't think there were at the time I left.
It all started when I began this Bipolar support group through my hospital. My pdoc referred me, and each week I found myself in tears telling everyone how horrible ppl were to me at my job (my managers), how I didn't have any rights there (w/a mental illness). Towards the end, someone there said to me "you have to leave, we can all see this is killing you, and the job is not worth your life" (or my health, my well being!).
Here where I live, I left my job with a letter from my pdoc stating that due to health reasons, I was no longer able to work. With that letter I was able to go on Unemployment, for Sick Benefits. Government options may be different where you are. This was available to me for 15 weeks, at which point I decided I need to go back to school to get a career that is going to suit me medically. I am applying for the goverment to fund my schooling.
I am MUCH better now that I left the job-So please hear me when I tell you, there is a way...And as another posting suggested, the next job you have may have better coverage.
Now-meds. This also is something I would like to share with you...Currently I am Bipolar.... I tried and tried, and the meds just seemed to make me worse. So, for now, I am not on any. When I made the decision in October to go off meds, I knew I would have to try to cope extra hard in other ways. Hence, the Support group (ask your pdoc! or counsellor). I learned a ton of coping skills that I am still practicing today. It became a little harder once the Support group ended, but now I am awaiting counselling.
So, make sure you really think about things. Talk to your pdoc, ask about your options. Try not to be scared to make the right decision. Meds may be long term, short term...It truly is different for everyone, and it changes throughout the course of the illness. I might be back on meds one day, and it may be sooner than I think. But for right now, I'm trying to deal without them.
Hope that was some help, please take special care.
Bipolar, Anxiety/Panic Disorder
--currently not on meds for bp--