rather than doing something stupid like I want to, such as walking off my job right now, I am here to try to vent my frustration.
First of all, I hate the fact that I can't just let things go, forget about
them, etc. It is 1:30 and I am still stewing over what happened at 11:30. I wish I could just LET IT GO!
I wish I knew better how to express myself at work. Today I feel torn between the Owner/Pres and the V.P/Project Manager. It's all over something so small and stupid, the job list. We have this notebook where we keep/write in new jobs and assign a number. Periodically I will get the list and retype it and put it back in the book, and print one out for all the architects and draftsman. Well today the V.P., who incidentally for months will basically say "oh I don't want to know how you handle/manage that, you need to do it the way you like". THEN she will turn around and say "oh it should be done this way, let's rearrange everything [to suit her]' then she'll forget about
it again. Until 3 or 4 months go by then she sticks her hands in again.
Today, I hear her talking to the draftsman about
a certain job. Then she starts launching into how the job list should be updated [on the computer] and printed out so everyone has a copy. (Even though it is on the network and everyone can access the computer copy as well) So I hear this and immediately think "oh I don't have enough to do here, so I better get right on that job list typing, because I can hear her saying 'oh well [Goddess] needs to update that and print it out' . So I do, and then try to explain in a professional manner that I don't always know when we start a new job, or when someone needs a new list, could you guys let me know when you add a job? Well that turns into how it doesn't really affect me until we start the billing and then they will tell me "we are in schematics, bill client x". I'm only the office manager, why should I know what's going on??!! Especially since later on I will be asked to find the contact information for this potential client. That I've never been told about
The the boss (pres) gets into it with "there's no blame here [goddess] it's just communication" I want to scream!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thats' what I am trying to say! I'm sometimes in the dark (about
new projects) and then they talk to me like I am an idiot because "you don't know about
the job in XXX??" Well no, I'm not psychic! Plus I feel insulted like it's not important enough for me to know what's happening in the company. Then he completely contradicts what the V.P. just said.."oh just print one out periodically, we don't need a new one every time" It's like being with my parents! Contradict each other, tell me I'm making big deal out of nothing etc.
On top of this, we are moving/building a new office, which is draining the company's funds. This is of course causing a lot of tension. Whenever I try to ask about
money, or point out what needs to be paid, I'm told to wait, or tell them later, etc. Then on the very last day before a huge payment is due, they panic and try to find the money. One day the boss actually said to me "what is it with you it's always about
money?".....I'm the OFFICE MANAGER! I'm not the one who is ordering a $5000.00 table and lights that cost 250 EACH etc. The window coverings company wants a down payment but they don't take credit cards and I get to hear about
how "that's not the way to do business etc etc".
I almost didn't come back after lunch. Thank God for my husband and his large ears. But I'm still so angry! What do I do with this feeling!!!!
My boss should thank this forum for the fact that I am still sitting here when I wanted to walk off.
Thanks for letting me vent. I'm sure I haven't explained the situation very well.
Post Edited (goddess0728) : 6/19/2007 11:57:35 AM (GMT-6)