Okay so I just get a call from my wife (remember we dont have insurance) "I just got back from the dentist, I need $3,000. worth of dental surgery and other stuff.... I went online and got $2,000. worth of credit .... what do I do?" Her tone is demanding and harsh.
I told her I didnt know, and when I hung up I had the stark realization that it just didnt matter what she does. I cannot save her or figure it all out for her or pluck money off of a tree. I can no longer allow myself to be pulled apart and sucked dry by her insensitvity, the unreasonable demands, constant trauma and drama, unsupportive and her just plain Wacko-Wanda behavior.
I am sorry she is having dental issues, but she is an adult, and needs to do the same thing that any other adult needs to do and just figure it out.... I can only muster up about half an ounce of sympathy for the mouth that screams at me all the time - as far as I am concerned she is reaping what she has sown.
So I am feeling a little freedom right now - What really matters to me is going fine - my kids are healthy and active and loving, I have 2 jobs that I really like and healthy friendships therin, I will find a way to manage my pain and have surgery, and truthfully, I am just irresponsible enough to not really care if the credit bills get ever get paid or not.... I really dont care, I am fine with the necessary essentials. So my dear wife can just charge it up and thats okay.... time to let it go.
So this was a great realization - I have to make my health, both physical and mental, a priority and I am feeling ready to take some small steps towards healing myself, maybe the relationship if it works out and definately work on healing these physical issues....
wish me luck
thank you for being here................