First of all I want to welcome you to the forum,I am very glad that you found us and I am sure you will find the support that you are looking for.
When I was 12 years old my mom's boyfriend raped me. The molestation went on for 3 more years until I ran away and never went back. I told no one because he of course told me that he would kill my whole family ect ect.
I am 37 now. And to this day I have not gotten over it. I still have nightmares. I can't stand certain smells that remind me of him.
I regret not telling anyone. I am scared that he did it to someone else and since I did not tell then I feel that it would be my fault if some other little girl had to go through that.
I too have a bad relationship with my mom,and blame her. I too begged not to have to go. I would hide and try not to be found when it was time to go.
I finally told her when I was 21...all I heard was how it hurt her!! How she did her best as a single mom ect ect.
You need to talk to an adult. A Put your trust in your parents..if they misuse that trust then go to another adult.
You can email me at any time.
I want to try to help you as much as I can.
Chronic Depression, Panic Attacks,Anxiety Attacks,Anorexia
Meds I have taken throughout the years:Wellbutrin,Tranxene,Paxil,Prozac,Valium,
Currently taking none.www.healingwell.com/donatewww.myspace.com/ShynSassy315
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