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Cyborg Ninja
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   Posted 7/4/2007 11:35 PM (GMT -6)   
I have a lot of pent-up anger and no way to release it. I've been wronged by many, many people and they don't feel one iota of remorse. I can't stand this injustice. I keep these feelings inside me, and while I do at times talk about how I feel with them (in a calm, rational way), I still feel the anger when they are not sorry. I realize we all make mistakes, but I admit mine. I care about the people around me and I treat other people well. But those same people step all over me. I can't stand it. I hate having to be the "good person" who does all the "right things." Who people look up to for guidance. Nobody is ever there for me.
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   Posted 7/5/2007 12:59 AM (GMT -6)   
So sorry, Cyborg for what u are having to go through, I know what u mean about always having to be the good person, but if I am not, I feel so guilty I can't live with myself. I was done wrong by a distant family member about 7-8 yrs ago and I still haven't gotten completely over it, although I am a little better most of the time. I have tried and tried to get over it and not hold a grudge, but he really hurt me mentally, and it just kind of lingers and he will never ever admit he was wrong, but everybody elese knows he was, so that helps, but at first they weren't sure and that is what hurt the most. He is very coniving though and he is so smooth that I can understand to a certain degree why they believed him or questioned it anyway, but it still hurts. Keep posting here, to vent if nothing elese, I think maybe that would help u a lot and u wouldn't be keeping it bottled up inside at least. We will be glad to listen and I am sure u will get a lot of good advice and support here. Hope things get better for u soon.

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   Posted 7/5/2007 8:53 AM (GMT -6)   
sad  Cyborg~
I guess I understand to a certain extent to what you are saying.  I have periods of extreme bouts of anger.  My anger stems from things that I have done that I am living with and the instances that I feel that no matter how hard I try, either me or the people that I have hurt suffer again.
Alot of my anger is with myself and alot of times I feel so stupid because of things I have not been able to do or things I try to do with no success.
Little things really get me going, like.....
my car is dirty and it has been sunny for days but I know that as soon as I step outside and wash and wax my car it will rain.  *guess what, 9.5 times out of 10, it does!*
Yesterday, nice windy day, I got my daughter and I kites, the wind was really blowing, perfect kite flying day. *got the kites together went outside and you guessed it, off and on wind, kite was on the ground more than in the air*
I know that these are little insignificant things to most people but to me they provoke the anger in my because I wonder why it is that when I try to not be depressed and do things that I know will bring out of it at least for a little while, it most times it works against me.  I have alot of anger at myself and the way things go in my life.
The only thing really that keeps me going is the times that actually are wonderful and memorable.
" We are each of us angels with only one wing, and we can only fly by embracing one another."
Luciano de Crescenzo
" Love is being stupid together."
Paul Valery
" Tonight I sent an angel to watch over you, but it came back. When I asked why, it told me that angels don't watch over other angels."

olivia of course
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   Posted 7/5/2007 9:21 AM (GMT -6)   

I trully understand what you mean, I was having anger issues just a few weeks ago (doctor put me on antpsychotic to calm me down). People even commented that they felt like they were walking on on thin ice. I was getting angry about anything and everything. I guess it was triggered by stress, because then I was going through rough patches.

I hope things work out for you, and hang in there!

~~~ Olivia  ~~~
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Post Edited (olivia of course) : 7/5/2007 12:52:18 PM (GMT-6)

Cyborg Ninja
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   Posted 7/5/2007 9:45 PM (GMT -6)   
I don't know how I am able to restrain myself from acting out. I keep my feelings to myself. Over time, things get easier, but it's never forgotten. Right now I'm thinking about an ex who won't even let me talk to him. I'm just so angry about it.
Current DX: Graves' disease, Crohn's disease, syringomyelia (C6-L1)
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